Finally a Christmas song that explains how Christmas actually feels to me.
In case you haven’t figured it out from previous posts, I’m pretty much a Grinch…I don’t begrudge others their Christmas Cheer (well not too much) but I’m just not the kind of guy that gets all ‘excited’ about Christmas, except the fact that I get time off from work this time of year.
I don’t do well with Christmas, I haven’t since I was young, I likely will never do well with Christmas. It is a hard fact of life, it makes life difficult for me sometimes. If I could change it I would…and I’ve tried, occasionally I’ll have an ‘ok’ Christmas day. but those are rare…so usually I try to be alone on Christmas so as not to infect others with my ‘poo poo ishness’ that doesn’t always work. – Usually the worst day is Christmas Day…after that things are over with. (usually)
I try to like Christmas, really I do…but in reality I can handle about 12 days of “Christmas Cheer” that means if we started ‘celebrating’ Christmas about December 13th I’d be in pretty good shape. Unfortunately we don’t, we start the day after Thanksgiving (if we are lucky) and LOTS of places start the first of November….and if you work in retail it starts even earlier than that. So by the time we actually GET to Christmas, I’m more burned out than a communal bong at a Grateful Dead Concert.
When you reach Christmas and you are not the cheery happy giggly Christmas Cheer person, people think you are a right bastard. And who knows they may be right….but it isn’t because I want to be a shit head a Christmas. It turns out I just am. The best I can do is try to limit my ‘shit headed-ness’ but unfortunately that is rarely enough for those around me. – So Christmas by myself is usually the best choice for me and those around me.
I am trying to get better, sometimes it works sometimes it doesn’t but the trying is what counts.
It’s after Christmas now…and normally I’d be better by now…this isn’t a ‘normal’ Christmas though…so it will likely be a long time before I am ‘better’. Anyway…one day at a time…and at least its 364 more days before I have to suffer through another Christmas.
Happy New Year folks!
(I actually LIKE New Years!)
